Thursday, November 18, 2010

Follow up visit with the RE

I had my follow up visit with the RE on Tuesday and it went well.  I need to schedule to have a hysteroscopy done the next time AF arrives so they can remove the polyp.  If AF doesn't come by the end of the month I am to call the office and they will put me on a drug that will stimulate her arrival.  Then after I have had the procedure done I can then move on to IUI.  She is going to start me on clomid and will have me do a trigger shot.  The total cost is $1600.  Not a bad number relatively speaking.  More importantly it's a number I can manage.  So, come January I will be doing my first IUI.  Now I just need to find a sperm donor.   

Up until now it hasn't seem really real, but now it does.  I'm close folks.  Close to getting this show on the road.  The ride might not last long, but at least I will know that I took it. 

Cost today: $140 (Follow up visit)
Cost to date: $1835

Monday, November 15, 2010

My job

So I called out sick two days last week because I couldn't get up the gumption to go into work.  The dread of having to act like I know what I'm doing was just too much.  See, I started a new project about a month ago.  Glorious, right?  I would no longer be bored, which if you read my post back in September (Mental Health Day) you would know I hate.  As with most consulting projects the direction on how to proceed has been unclear, but that was ok because it was something I was used to.  Management consulting isn't for everyone.  If you can't survive in an atmosphere where change is constant and direction is often vague then you will hate it.  Me, I love it.  I love the challenge.  I am good at making sense out of things that don't make sense (for the most part at least).  For some reason however, this project has been one that I haven't thrived in and instead am dying in.  A month into the project and the direction is still unclear.  Not a bad thing, but I'm also no closer to understanding the client than I was a month ago and that is a problem.  My project lead is more technical than I am and understands it better than I do which in turns only highlights my lack of understanding.  He and I talked this morning and before I could raise my concern that I am a fish out of water he tells me that he doesn't think I am a right fit for this project and that he's going to talk to my boss and see if I couldn't be put on a different project.  Most people would be upset or feel slighted.  Me, I was relieved.  It means I can stop pretending to know what the heck he is talking about and I can stop beating myself up for not getting it.  It just means I have another opportunity to succeed on another project.  (Secretly though, I think I will hate my next project too, but no point in putting the cart before the horse:)

Today was a good day.  I have a bit of hope.  Something I have been lacking lately. 

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Kniting 101

Tonight is my first knitting class.  I have been working on crocheting an afghan for about a month now and so far so good.  I like crocheting because it keeps my hands busy and my mind off of eating.  Since knitting seems to be more popular and therefore there are more patterns to chose from I decided to give it a try.  The local craft/fabric store is offering a class so I signed up.  I'm excited to learn, though a bit fearful that I won't be able to do the whole two hands at once maneuver.  I guess I will soon find out now won't I!  Wish me luck ladies.

Update (11/8/10):  I am still on the fence about the knitting.  It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, but it's slow going.  At least with crocheting you see progress really fast.  Not so much with knitting, at least not for me.  I'm going to continue to plug at alternating between crocheting the afghan and knitting a scarf.  The scarf may take longer:)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Saline Sonogram

Today was the saline sonogram to get a better picture of my uterus essentially.  The procedure is a combination of the HSG and Day 3 ultrasound.  The procedure was uneventful in that there wasn’t much pain or discomfort, although I did have cramping afterwards.   The doctor walked me through everything and even took the time to explain the results to include drawing me a picture.  It looks like I have a polyp so if that is the case I will need to have surgery done to remove it.  I’m waiting for a call from the nurse to find out what the next steps are.  I did do a little research and it looks like it won’t be done till the NEXT time AF comes, so I could be looking at the new year the rate that my periods have been going (slight exaggeration, but close to the truth). 
Seriously, this whole TTC thing is an exercise in patience.  I’m glad I wasn’t planning  on starting to try till January cause it looks like that’s when it would happen even if I didn’t decide to delay it.  Lordy!

Cost today: $20 (copay) (Saline Sonogram)
Cost to date: $1435

Update (11/4/10): The nurse left me a message this morning and there is nothing to do right now.  The doctor will go over my results when I meet with her in 2 weeks and we will decide at that appointment what the next step will be.