Monday, September 20, 2010

About me (Part 1)

Up until this point I haven't really shared much of myself.  Largely because I haven't really known what was "worthy" of sharing.  I don't want to bore people, but how else will I get you to love me if I don't share something about myself?  So here goes...

Happiest memory – I have many happy memories, but if I had a gun to my head I would pick the time when I was 8 years old and I overheard my mom tell my dad that she hates having TMJ.  I have three older brothers and the first letter of each of their names makes up the acronym TMJ.  Being 8, I automatically assumed she meant she hated my brothers and that she loved me the best.  I was never so happy as I was that day.  It wasn't till I was older that I would learn that TMJ stood for Temporomandibular joint; a disorder of the jaw.  I still contend though that I am my mom’s favorite even if she won’t admit it:)
Saddest memory – I have lots of these too.  The one that I recall the most is the time I called J (ex) and left a message on his voicemail telling him that I didn’t want to talk to him anymore because loving him hurt too much.  Sadly, that would not be the last time I would say that to him.  It sticks out in my mind because I remember sobbing hysterically, something I rarely do, and feeling like I had my heart broken into a thousand pieces.  Yes, I know, I should have gotten a clue a kicked him to the curb, but what can I say, I was stupid, naive, and in love and I took him back.

Greatest success – Hands down graduating college is my greatest success.  It took me 7 years but I did it.  My college years were the best time of my life.  You are so hopeful for the future and you feel like you can conquer anything, then you graduate and reality sets in!  

Biggest regret – This one is easy, well sort of.  I don’t regret J, but I regret staying with him as long as I did.  I should have cut ties with him long before I did.  I just honestly thought we were meant to be together, even if he didn’t.  So much time wasted. 

What else would you like to know?


hopefulcc said...

Your story is not boring! It's what led you here, to this point in your life. You're starting on one of the biggest journeys one can take - single motherhood.
I look forward to reading what happens next :)

Selkie Mom said...

I had a J too and have similar thoughts. I am sure you are your mother's favorite.

missing1 said...

HA! The TMJ story is classic! Don't we all want to be the 'fave'.
I think no story is ever boring, and think of the exciting posts to come.

Tiara said...

I agree with Hopeful! You are so not boring!

I never doubted that my brother was my parent's favourite...they all deny it but I know the truth, lol!

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